IT'S TIME TO HEAL: coming back to life after a major depressive episode... LET'S DO THIS TOGETHER

[@deannaambrogio5592]

One thing that sometimes helps me is the idea of - “Can I just..?” Can I just tidy the counter for one minute? Can I just see what I can get accomplished in 5 minutes? Sometimes I do the 5 minutes, sometimes the momentum of starting and the results I see help me do a little more.

[@juniormoth4830]

Thank you for being so vulnerable, my mental health is bad at the moment too and it means a lot to see KZbinrs being so open and honest! Take care of yourself Hailey!

[@HaileyinBookland]

I hope things get better for you soon 💜

[@casandra_only1]

I’ve started making mostly all my meals at home so I can focus on completing the task instead of just snacking. When I am busy I don’t focus on eating. I’m happy that you were able to baked instead of ordering the donuts.

[@theworkathomemama7148]

Thank you so much for sharing. My husband was diagnosed with a disability a little over a year ago, so he can no longer work. So much of my energy has gone into taking care of him that I haven’t taken care of myself. I am starting to do that again. Watching this video has been helpful.

[@carahamelie]

One thing I do that helps my ADHD... and mental health is make my list.... but then at the end of the day mark off the things I did on that list, and then write other things that I got done that day as well. I think those of us with ADHD can get really mad at ourselves if we dont mark off things on our list and we feel like failures... but writing the things down that I DID get done (even if they are small) really helps put my day into perspective, and makes me feel a lot better about myself and my day.

[@HaileyinBookland]

I do the same in my nighttime journaling! 🥰 it is very helpful!!

[@amaradominica]

This new era of videos you have been releasing is inspiring me!! I have also just come out of a major depressive episode and it feels so warm knowing people who also struggle exist. We need more of this content on social media! You are amazing :)

[@HaileyinBookland]

So happy to hear that!!! 💕

[@jelisamasas1771]

I have to say this helped me and validated how I've been feeling/living as well! I just turned 30 and I'm ready to start my healing Era as well. ❤❤ thanks for sharing this with us. I know it had to be difficult.

[@inklings1998]

I appreciated this video so much, Hailey! I am diagnosed with depression and anxiety and strongly suspect that I have ADHD as well, so I related to everything you were talking about. I know it took a lot of vulnerability to talk about, film, and post this video but it has made me feel less alone and less ashamed of my own struggles with procrastination and caring for myself and my spaces. So thank you so much! ❤

[@kathy2539]

Your honesty is refreshing and you're not alone. I'm a procrastinator, too and I have D.A.S (Depression, anxiety and stress disorder), though sometimes I think I'm just plain lazy and get myself into such a mess. The problem I have is that the mess becomes a bigger issue because I don't know where to start and then I procrastinate some more!!!

[@RowskiHeat]

Hailey! You do not need to be embarrassed! We have all been there and know how hard it can be. Thank you for sharing with us! Love watching your journey 💜

[@sharksverse]

Just starting this video because I am currently in an extreme depressive episode. I'm sending good vibes to you and everyone reading this, we will get through this.

[@kellyreadingbooks]

You should totally read How to Keep House While Drowning by KC Davis. It’s all about how mental health/ADHD and cleaning go hand in hand and honestly it made me cry a couple times because it was stuff I really needed to hear!

[@maniigotkickss]

I love this video. It helped me so much with coming out of an episode my self. I hope all is well 😬...

[@givemeprimelaughter]

Genuinely, THANK YOU, Hailey. I have had the same struggle for as long as I could remember. The messiness, the paper piles, uncashed checks etc. It's overwhelming and when your mental health tanks cleaning and dealing with paperwork is the last thing you want to do. Spoons get low fast and somedays just feeding yourself is enough. Proud of you for being honest and for taking care of yourself and your space. I know from experience it is hard but it is so worth it once it is done. Hope you are doing well, sweetheart.

[@Jacq.Benoit.writes]

As someone else with ADHD and who struggles with major depressive episodes, I appreciate your vulnerability and transparency in this video. My apartment looks exactly like that after my episodes, and I know how much shame and embaressment I always feel when looking at it. It's nice to know that it's a "normal" part of mental health issues, and it's not just a me thing.

[@TheBookIsMuchBetter]

Oh Hailey, I resonated so much with this video and I am proud of you for being so kind to yourself and vulnerable about your battles. Struggling with something similar, this really gave me the encouragement I needed in order to take a day to just heal a little. Work a little. Sleep a little. And overall be kinder to myself and be a little bit more open about my battles. Thank you so much for being vulnerable on here. I hope nothing but the best for you

[@Carolagw]

I had watched your videos for years and last year I got into a big depression and stopped watching things like youtube. I'm now back on track with medicine and lots of therapy and finding your videos again with you trying to improve your life as well makes me so happy! We can do this!

[@thisstoryaintover]

LOVE this video so much 🫶🏾 totally feel you on trying to work with the ADHD + depression + anxiety rather than against them 💓 sending you so much love and glad you're prioritizing yourself 🫶🏾

[@natalielemanski1339]

THIS! This is where I'm at too and I greatly appreciate seeing people on similar journeies.

[@RisingPhoenix527]

My diet the past three years has been garbage. It’s been really really difficult since i started living away from the family, and there have been dark times i want to forget like my ex leaving me, and on a separate time, being in an accident by someone running a red light. and im desperate to get back to how i used to be. I used to be super clean creative bubbly and insight. Now im a gremlin, i mope and lose my cool. I cant keep drinking coffee and eating junkfood. I cant do this to myself anymore. I cant do a do over, but i will do what i can to fix myself for a better future, nomatter how small/babysteps it has to be.

[@StudioLindsay]

I was recently diagnosed with ADHD as an adult and struggle with getting certain things done on time, like depositing checks too. I really appreciate your honesty!

[@khrystynakv]

Thank you so much for this video. It makes me feel like I am not alone. This year hasn't been the best mentally and physically. I live in the states, but I am from and have family in Ukraine. And the war has been putting a huge weight on me. I feel guilty every single day for not being able to stop it. I also lost my dog of 15 years this February and it's been hard. I try to smile and stay positive around family and friends and even on my own channel. Cause I'm afraid to fall apart infront of everyone. But I've been trying hard to clean, rest, and take a deep breath each week. Trying to accept the fact that a lot of things are out of my control. This video helped so much. I can't wait to watch more!! ❤

[@Intofitness82]

There are a ton of podcasts on living with adhd , I love them and have been so helpful.

[@Aishaoaktree1122]

thanks for sharing. I've noticed for myself if i put systems in place it will help with the clitter, having a place for everything and forming a routine of putting it there as soon as i walk in or come to a room it makes it easier, some weeks it works and sometimes you spiral so far down it's hard to stick to the routines. it's good to see how others are tackling issues as well.

[@esztergal3141]

I remember watching your videos when I started loving books at 13yrs old, 5 yrs later you're helping me see that I'm not alone, and that I can get through it. Thank you, love your content! Keep it up! ❤

[@gaea.readss]

*goes on a tangent rant* then “wait I don’t need to explain myself to you” LOL😅😅😅 as someone who’s been watching you since your fairy lights bookshelf era (which I don’t even remember how long ago that was), the growth is immaculate😍😭

[@renakss]

this new healing and wellness era is so different from your past videos and i'm loving it. i've been kinda obsessed with those videos on tiktok too, i have a whole collection 😂 seeing people prioritizing and taking care of themselves is so satisfying and inspiring.

[@Ms.SpookyNerd]

My mental health been doing alot better since working out, reading more again, and having a fun busy summer 🌞🌻🍨🪁🍉💐

[@travismiddleton8218]

Great video. Thanks you for your honesty and sharing. As someone who has struggled with depression and just dealing with feelings of loneliness videos like yours are very uplifting ❤😊 I love your channel btw

[@HaileyinBookland]

I’m so glad, thank you 💜💜

[@caffeinatedreader_]

Thank you SO much for being open and posting this. I also struggle with anxiety, depression & ADHD so this made me feel less alone 🥹💜

[@michellehernandez8442]

Your words resonated so much for me. I used to weigh 107 and turned 18 and kept gaining weight. Now at 29, I weigh 190 and it is so hard. I struggle significantly with my. body and self image. I have anxiety, depression, bipolar disorder, ptsd, and ocd. I also struggle with binge eating. Thank you for opening up❤❤❤

[@rhylieandmaddison]

thank you for showing the reality of what happens when your mental health controls your life. I have been struggling a lot with a similar situation and my flat has really gotten out of control. so thank you for reminding me that it's not just me

[@17caria]

This feels like one of the most vulnerable videos you've ever done, and I loved it!!

[@Kimberly5453]

This was such a cool video to watch. Thank you so much for being honest and vulnerable with us all. It was especially nice to hear someone talk about binge eating. I use to go to all you can eat buffets by myself and then spend 4 hours at the gym because of the guilt i felt. It was so special for us for you to open a bit of yourself up for us. Thank you so much! You are a true inspiration! ❤

[@s.g2344]

Thank you for sharing - it does help make you feel less alone, i sometimes honsetly feel like everyone elses life is going well and im just on my own not doing much 😢 (doesnt help when i go on social media either!) - last year i went through depression and it took a good few months to come out of it . If anyones going through depression i would 100 % recomend talking to a therapist or someone you trust or journalling Also fidget toys and meditation helped me in the past as i suffer from anxiety as well.

[@onkookietime]

watching this while cleaning up my space too💜

[@julievandemoere1194]

I loved this video so much! After losing my mom a year ago and suddenly living alone for the first time at 21, my house is a mess. I also have ADHD and so everything is always very overwhelming so thank you for the tips and tricks! Currently I'm cleaning out the closets and I ordered some nice clothes organisers to make it more exciting😊

[@patriciawilliams593]

I’m so glad you are feeling better

[@Rene_33]

I love watching videos like this. It also gets me motivated to clean organize do the house chores that I dread doing but honestly dont take that long to do like dishes folding laundry etc. I also have the same mindset of dont go down the stairs empty handed or up the stairs empty handed. Thanks for sharing your process and being so open. Hope all is still going well for you 😊

[@lorielovesbooks7315]

I understand the struggle to clean. I hope you find calmness and comfort. I congratulate myself on doing 3 things in a day and sometimes if it is only one thing done in a day I remind myself that I still did good that day.

[@judithcakelover]

Thank you for sharing this it's so brave❤ and so relatable because my house has been a big mess (same as my mental health). And you really inspired me to do the same and just start with cleaning up bits step by step. We can do this.😁💪❤️

[@debbystragier2154]

I recommend reading how to keep a house from drowning from kc davis. I haven’t read it myself but i’ve heard a lot of good reviews of people who also struggle with depression and taking care of things in their house. I definitely know how you feel though, sometimes just living can be hard but i’m also still grateful that i’m alive tbh even when things get hard. I also have a binge eating disorder, I tend to especially set emotions with food. I’m a similar size to you and have always been on the bigger size. I have accepted a long time ago that i’ll never be skinny, for me the most important things is to be healthier and happier.

[@HaileyinBookland]

It’s on my list!!! 💜

[@MarianaFerreira-l1f]

This is my story.I had a major depressive episode when I was 18.I spent 2 years basically in bed. Then I recovered greatly and the depression I had was high functioning depression sometimes it would even go away and I WOULD BECOME HAPPY for months.Ive been told by a new therapist that Im likely bipolar 2 Im just now entering a major depressive state.its very traumatic for me to go through this again after so much progress:( thank you for this video

[@natalieclaire6047]

THANK YOU for being so open. You are who I needed years ago when I didn’t know what was happening to me and who I was becoming because of undiagnosed depression. Just thank you.

[@jenreviewsbooks]

Thank you so much. Sometimes finding motivation is hard and the binge eating is something that I too can struggle with.

[@sakuraiswinter]

i love how your talking to us with your hands its so fun

[@pariah_haven]

Thank you for sharing your experience with eating, body image and mental health. I know it's hard but I relate to you a lot. As hard as it was for you to admit your struggles there are other people out there that are going through it, and it's nice to not feel alone.

[@travellingbookowlforever]

Thank you for this video. I am also in my healing era now, finding out what triggers my depression and this motivated me so much to also get my apartment clean and tidy again. Clean flat = Clear mind ❤

[@crystaldollhouse]

This was so comforting/helpful to watch, I struggle with many of the same issues and I feel motivated to tackle some of the things I really need to deal with!

[@crystaldollhouse]

I also feel like I need to make banana muffins 😛

[@Wgg132]

I’ve been finally able to address my depressive episode and I’m watching along to get myself out of my rut thank you for this video! 💕💕

[@RK4gaming288]

27:33 I struggle as well with this. Thank you so much for sharing❤!

[@hollyleach4388]

You could seriously be talking about my life. Thanks for the insight and hope. Keep strong!

[@rubymcdime7382]

I have ADHD and depression too and this was exactly what I needed today. Thank you so much ❤❤❤❤

[@rachaelnuchols764]

Praying for you ❤....been there...

[@AlaCatMom]

Hailey, I’m so proud of you! I love your attitude and I can truly see how much you’ve grown though the years. Keep loving yourself and taking things slow! And thank you for being honest and open about your struggles. I know so many of us can relate and may feel motivated by your example

[@kahri8488]

I have three young kids and have really been struggling with postpartum depression the past 4 years. My space has been literally like a hoarder’s house. It’s horrible. I hate it. My poor husband is at breaking point with it lol. Lately I’ve been working really really hard on cleaning my space and keeping it clean. It’s hard to do with three kids 4 and under but I’ve made it two weeks so far with my space staying super tidy and clean and it’s become a bit of an obsession but I think it’s a good obsession. Definitely a healthier one than I have had. Also, the binge eating thing hit home. I’ve been eating family share packs of chocolate EVERY DAY. Gained so much weight and felt horrible. So am stopping that too! Baby steps towards a healthier you, well done!

[@crazybooklady2104]

I love your honesty about how you feel and about the state of your home. I've been trying to get the motivation to clean my place.

[@shellycottrell433]

I feel you 🥰 I wish you joy ❤

[@kayloniperson]

I’m starting a very similar era. Thank you for sharing ❤ this is exactly what I needed this morning 😊

[@racheltfisher]

I can relate to this video, this year has been tough so far for various reasons and I am having to push myself to do stuff 😩

[@kristinejohnson576]

Thank you for this video! I have been going through some hard mental health times lately and this video made me feel less alone. I also like to do morning brain dumps in my journal. It helps to get it all out on the page.

[@adriennb]

I dont know why i loved those laundry transitions so much haha love your video as always x

[@angiepeyton2769]

Great video! Thanks for the inspiration!

[@jennareadsalot9153]

This video really helped me! I’ve been going through a lot of depression and anxiety lately and my room has probably never looked worse, but I used this as a kind of “clean with me” and it made the process so much quicker

[@ellyrenee]

Thank you for being vulnerable, I related to so much of this❤️

[@latoyabolt9459]

This was soooooo good! I made notes. Thanks for sharing. You were real without being stressful to watch.

[@talitagirardi1]

Thanks for the video. It helps a lot seeing people that are struggling too working things out. ❤

[@Funsizechibi07]

I absolutely loved this! Thank you so much for sharing. It really meant so much! ❤

[@KathyBaier]

What a great video! I hope your balance comes for you soon. Thanks so much for sharing.

[@misssunrise3717]

OMG, THIS IS COOOOOL!!! THANK YOU FOR SHARING THIS PHASE WITH US. GOD KNOWS I NEED IT TO PUSH MYSELF FORWARDS TOO❤

[@boopsieeee]

I absolutely loved this video so much! Thank you for being so vulnerable and opening up to us; it really made me feel less alone with some of the things I'm going through myself. and I am so looking forward to more videos in this series!😊 Sending lots of love💗

[@byambernicole]

Hailey, the shift in content has been amazing!! Your vulnerability and strength has been so helpful for someone who also has ADHD. Just watching this made me take all the dishes that have been piling up in my room out. So happy to see you make content that you love! Much love to you!

[@bookaholicbanter]

First, thanks for opening up and sharing all of that with us. I know that must have been difficult. I am in the same position in my life and suffer from the same things. I understand. Don't be too hard on yourself. This vlog was a major win! You did so much! I know how satisfying it feels when you get out of that slump and make your space nice & tidy. I needed this today. You have motivated me to do some cleaning and organizing as well so thank you! ❤

[@MoonlightBookReader]

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING THIS!! Your honesty and vulnerability was something that I, personally, really connected with, as well as a lot of the things you've been going through/dealing with. The major depressive episodes, the not being able or feeling motivated to even organize my own space and the binge eating as well. And I too have come to realize that, yes, I don't have the body I would like to have right now, but I need to take care of my mental health, my inner peace, before I can think of anything else. My mind needs to be my priority, above all else. You always look beautiful because you are a beautiful human, and it's really empowering to see how you're working towards a better self, a calmer self, more in tune with your needs and at your own pace. Keep sharing these videos Hailey!! And keep on smiling and goin at it one day at a time. Lots of love! 😘😘🥰

[@roxanerussell3228]

Thank you for sharing! Congratulations on all that you got accomplished. I also suffer from mental illness (bipolar,anxiety and depression) I am also a huge procrastinator. Thank you for the motivation and I look forward to more videos in this series ❤

[@agalo3631]

I knew I was drawn to you, not just because you have awesome book videos, but because we are SO SIMILAR! Currently living in a pile of my own consequences and finding it very difficult to motivate myself even though I have friends coming over in 8 days and I know I don't want them to see random crap everywhere. Not only that, but I am writing, but haven't been able to sit down and write because there's stuff EVERYWHERE! Thank you, thank you, thank you for being open and vulnerable here and for showing that we can have control of our lives and we can get things done!🥰

[@shaunaXX]

This is actually so helpful for me rn. This made me make a list and I hoovered downstairs while listening to this video. I saw someone on tiki took call these “let’s not rot” days which. Yes. Let’s get shit done and not rot 💛

[@ashleefranklin5633]

Thank you for being really raw and honest Hailey. These types of videos are really inspiring to see and I’m so glad that you’re feeling better. Continue making content that makes you happy and is easiest for you because I will always watch anything that you make x

[@kaylestanleytilden9482]

I love this video please dont be embarrassed everyone has one of those days! Im going through somethings atm it making me not eat nervous depressed and anxious. I hope you get to feeling better ❤❤ i love these types of videos❤ adorable dogs❤❤

[@jampsonn1826]

I am livinggg for this content. Your honesty and realness is so refreshing, and i wish you nothing but good vibes on your journey. ❤

[@MatthewTeixeira]

Love the more vlog like content! And as someone who struggles often with mental health, it's so nice to see your openness

[@jessiepostshere]

I’m also working with a trifecta (anxiety, panic attacks, autism) and this felt so relatable. I aspire to make my videos this vulnerable 🫶

[@jessica-bookslit4953]

I’m loving your new videos! Everything you are going through and have, I have totally been there. You can do this!

[@gabriellalyra3094]

Love the video and you being so open and vulnerable! I would love some notion content, I'm so jealous of everyone using it but can't seem to figure it out! 🥰🥰

[@carlatowns6942]

I am you and you are me! This was so relatable. Thank you for being so open and vulnerable. Loving the lifestyle type content. Healing era!!!

[@jessicaStamper]

Thank you for being so open about it. There are times when my mental health is low. I need to do some more reading.

[@theSoharMRS]

I love that you are opening up and not hiding who you are. It makes you so relatable. I struggle with a lot of the same things you do and it’s nice that you are talking about it and what you are doing to help yourself. ❤️❤️❤️

[@elannag]

THANK YOU for this video and sharing your life. Makes me feel so much better to know I'm not alone in this with mental health ❤

[@Shadowhuntedwizards]

So motivating, You're doing great!

[@alyinthelibrary2281]

I don't typically comment on videos, but I really just wanted to say how much I appreciated this video and look forward to your new series!!!

[@thepianogirl088]

Hooray for new outlooks, new attitudes, and new healing ❤

[@_foreverabookaddict_]

I can only speak for myself, but I have been diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety and I deep dove into anything and everything that could possibly help with the symptoms (along with my meds obviously), and I changed my diet. I've only recently made the change, but my anxiety is so much more manageable in the week and a half of changing. It's crazy. I didn't think it would really help, but here I am. So maybe try changing your diet? It sounds silly, but it really does help.

[@nadia___mitchell]

Loved this video - it was so relatable! I also struggle with Bingeing😔 thank you for sharing that❤ I loved seeing how you were clearing the clutter around you to help clear the clutter in your mind❤

[@walkingexercise5375]

Love this video, hope you continue this series!

[@thekyleemadison]

you're just like me for real -- this was like watching myself trying to tackle all the things on my to-do list (i also have the trifecta lol)

[@emilybannon1943]

Thank you for this video/series! As someone with anxiety depression and a learning disability with some executive dysfunction as well. This is so motivating

[@Books_BrewsandBeyond]

These new videos are very inspiring and motivating Hailey. I hope the muffins were nice and cleaning can be hard work but it feels great when achieved.

[@livylou11]

Thank you for this. For opening up when you don't have to. You are genuine, caring and so inspiring.

[@bookloverlaura]

You’re amazing Hailey! Thank you so much for being candid.

[@aznickster]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. Your journey is touching many lives and it makes people realize they are not alone.