Truth About Sex Reassignment Surgery (Part 9)

[@CrimsonCatacombs]

Awhhh..... I am tearing up. You are a brave, beautiful woman. I applaud you for being sooo strong that you are openly sharing this with others who may be considering srs. I don't know you but seeing you so upset makes me want to just give you a big hug .

[@SilvijaVil]

Whoever thinks a surgery like this is easy must be delusional and just.. crazy! I have so much respect for you for going through this and no words can express how happy I am you are alright!

[@R4wRM0nster]

I can imagine she gets money for YT plus last time I heard she worked for MAC(?) so I can imagine she is well off enough plus the saving she has most likely done :)

[@Ghoulqween]

R4wRM0nster Diana Peña this is so inappropriate. Julie is talking about the hardships that she is currently facing and all you care about is her job and how she can afford this? It's none of our business, we should be focusing on how courageous she is and we should be supportive of her, not talking about her socioeconomic status.

[@InorganicVegan]

Grace Olivia I was just bringing up a very valid point for this surgery that is the reason a lot of trans people can't get it. Relax, keyboard warrior. Just an observation.

[@Ghoulqween]

ok :) no hard feelings. Ps I do know that a lot of trans people can't get this because I'm trans as well.

[@InorganicVegan]

Grace Olivia It just makes me sad because I live in 'murica, where healthcare is uber expensive. So much for that dream. :P

[@Taaaah2010]

Honestly, when people watch her videos, they need stop looking for the "man" she used to be, because HES NOT THERE. He never was. When are people gonna understand this? Its not strange to imagine shes now a woman. Its strange to imagine she was once trapped inside a man's body and had to go through such horrible things to FINALLY feel comfortable in her own skin, to feel like who she really is. I cant imagine myself as a man, just like i cant imagine her as one, and im sure i wouldve had to go through the same if i had been born a boy. These people saying that ""he" needs to be ashamed of himself for mutilating his body" will probably never open themselves to understanding this and that makes me sad. All i know is that she inspires me immensely to follow my dreams, and she is living proof that you can achieve whatever you want in your life if youre willing to put your blood, sweat and tears into it. Joules, THANK YOU so much for opening up to us and for being so brave and strong. You have no idea how much you have inspired me. We love you, girl!!

[@garrettsmith8591]

Born a boy always a boy

[@jojovenegas1830]

+Garrett Smith why are u on this page?

[@cavaleer]

+JoJo Venegas Because it's public and when you post on a public forum that's what you get. To me, any many who doesn't savor his testosterone like I do, who think his male reality is a prison or torture, any man like this should end his suffering and live the lie. No one cares.

[@jojovenegas1830]

+cavaleer And that is your opinion. Do something about it.

[@jojovenegas1830]

+cavaleer And that is your opinion. Do something about it.

[@AshtonColby]

Thank you for being so honest. This is important for people to know. I think there is an idea that you have to make SRS out to be all positive so that you won't get criticized by people who don't understand it. Surgery is real no matter what. You are brave for being real and sharing your experience. Good luck! :)

[@SelphieFairy]

Julie, I think it's amazing that you would even share ANY of this experience on youtube or publicly. But I know you want to help other people and I know so many people are grateful to you for your honesty and frankness. You are brave and awesome and im happy you're safe.

[@JasonX00]

I'm am a Christian and I'm not perfect. Far from it. Princess Joules, you are amazing and inspiring. God bless you in you recovery and live the life that is you.

[@mzkokoismyname7630]

Maxi Mayhem u are not a Christian

[@kithand1106]

@@mzkokoismyname7630 you really gonna tell someone what their own religion is?

[@cuteypietiffany]

Thank you so much for being honest and for taking us along with you having your surgery. It's really important for other trans girls like me who are trying to make the decision, and you're doing a great job. Best of luck with your recovery!!

[@STEPHY7519]

Congratulation for your truth about Sex reassignanent surgery its finally step for your changes to woman

[@fun1138]

Stephanie Camacho

[@stevemacfarlane4925]

Wooow l love transgender women myself and I hope everyone has to realise that you are the most amazing and the most adorable and the most stunning transgender women I've ever seen. Don't let other people try and put u dow b proud of what you are, and for who u r. I love transgender women myself.

[@zimeihuo6654]

Transgender people should be respected because they go through so much misery to be where they are today. They fight for what they want! That is admirable.

[@jenp2901]

+FA123 so if a human wants to be a dog, would you praise them like that as well?

[@sc00f]

+FA123 Did you know that some people actually believe that they are not humans, but cats? Some even get surgeries done to look like a cat.

[@NightsFilmProduction]

lmao everyone goes thru things

[@sc00f]

+FA123 I could say the same - no male can be a female that's a complete lie and not real

[@sc00f]

That's just hearsay and conjecture. I.e. bullshit. Scientifically, there's no such thing as "male brain" or "female brain". www.pnas.org/content/112/50/15468.abstract Sex beyond the genitalia: The human brain mosaic Significance Sex/gender differences in the brain are of high social interest because their presence is typically assumed to prove that humans belong to two distinct categories not only in terms of their genitalia, and thus justify differential treatment of males and females. Here we show that, although there are sex/gender differences in brain and behavior, humans and human brains are comprised of unique “mosaics” of features, some more common in females compared with males, some more common in males compared with females, and some common in both females and males. Our results demonstrate that regardless of the cause of observed sex/gender differences in brain and behavior (nature or nurture), human brains cannot be categorized into two distinct classes: male brain/female brain. Abstract Whereas a categorical difference in the genitals has always been acknowledged, the question of how far these categories extend into human biology is still not resolved. Documented sex/gender differences in the brain are often taken as support of a sexually dimorphic view of human brains (“female brain” or “male brain”). However, such a distinction would be possible only if sex/gender differences in brain features were highly dimorphic (i.e., little overlap between the forms of these features in males and females) and internally consistent (i.e., a brain has only “male” or only “female” features). Here, analysis of MRIs of more than 1,400 human brains from four datasets reveals extensive overlap between the distributions of females and males for all gray matter, white matter, and connections assessed. Moreover, analyses of internal consistency reveal that brains with features that are consistently at one end of the “maleness-femaleness” continuum are rare. Rather, most brains are comprised of unique “mosaics” of features, some more common in females compared with males, some more common in males compared with females, and some common in both females and males. Our findings are robust across sample, age, type of MRI, and method of analysis. These findings are corroborated by a similar analysis of personality traits, attitudes, interests, and behaviors of more than 5,500 individuals, which reveals that internal consistency is extremely rare. Our study demonstrates that, although there are sex/gender differences in the brain, human brains do not belong to one of two distinct categories: male brain/female brain.

[@AliciaTransmuted]

Everyone is different. Everyone has their own degree of pain tolerance/management, expectations of how difficult it will be to cope with the aftermath of reassignment surgery and support network. Every surgery is a unique experience and SRS is an incredibly invasive and complex procedure we go through to be authentic to ourselves. My expectations of how painful it would be were through the roof. Yes, I too was told it would be just fine by everyone. I chose not to believe them. I steeled myself for the worst two to three months of my life post surgery. The thing is, it just wasn't anywhere close to how bad I had prepared myself for. Maybe I just lucked out. Maybe my pain expectations were really high. Ridiculously high perhaps. I still have never, ever said it was easy either physically or emotionally, because it most certainly isn't. I had weeks at home where the pain was so intense and acute, I just stayed up, lay on the couch and watched tv, read books, listened to music and alternated Tylonol and Advil every two hours and swapped ice packs non stop. I couldn't sleep with the constant pain. I had to physically exhaust myself to get any rest. I too questioned myself and second guessed myself... but after surgery. I think doubts, maybes, could of, should of, would of is part of the human journey and experience. I worried if I made the right decision with regard to my children, my spouse, etc. Well, I did make the right decision. I'm a much better person than I ever was. My sons will vouch for that. Don't push yourself too hard or beat yourself up. Take things as easy as you can right now. You're stronger than you think. This will all pass. You will put this behind you one day. Sooner than you may think. You're not alone. People care about you. I care about you. Don't be afraid to reach out.

[@lol26gal]

I had a spine operation when I was 12 and have a metal bar with screws in my spine for life. Had to be bed ridden for a week, and can't move around because it hurts like a bitch even when I sit down xD The pain was horrible then but now I'm good! #operationssucks Stay strong princess, and everything would be good after a while :D wishing you a fast recovery!!

[@DiLifeandStyle]

***** I couldn't agree with you more!

[@AliciaTransmuted]

***** I think your comments were right on target and are very relevant to this discussion. We sometimes dwell too much on the road not taken, forgetting that we are looking at our desires with rose coloured glasses. I've often dwelled on "what if's" with regard to transitioning when I had been much younger. First, it's a pointless exercise. Second, the support networks or medical advancements would not have been there. Thirdly, I do not regret marrying my very best friend in the whole world and giving her and myself three remarkable sons who are my pride and joy. We are still best friends. She loves me. She is no longer "in love" with me. I'm OK with that. I will never, ever let her down or abandon her. As long as I am living, she will always have me to fall back on.

[@lemonpiehaslemon]

Reading these KZbin comments make me sick . Some of you guys are so inconsiderate and say such ignorant things . She is brave enough to share and talk about HER OWN experience. The nerve of some people and their uncalled for ignorant comments. Anyways I love you and your bravery !💕

[@WnderlandReject]

No thanks, god is so demanding. All the fun people are in hell.

[@wilsonl.9793]

I don't know you. I simply came across this video in passing. Your willingness to be "real" and vulnerable on youtube is courageous. When you began to cry, I could feel your pain and I appreciate you sharing this with the world. It will make a difference in so many lives. Thank you!

[@maudepotvin8660]

Hello Joules! I didn't know that you were 21, i always though you were like near 30, because you are so mature. This just put in perspective how much a strong and wise person you are. Take care !

[@starsandrockets0]

im so sorry about the experience you had, you are so strong julie

[@RebeccaLoran]

After 14 years of knowing I need this surgery, finally reaching the point of no return in September 2019: either suicide or transitioning, I am 100% sure I need this. If I die on the table or during recovery, I'd rather that than live one more day knowing I could have tried and got scared. I am really fucking scared. Videos like yours are helping me prepare emotionally for whatever may come. This is my destiny, no matter the outcome.

[@sandrasticmeasures]

I can't even imagine going through what you've been through. You are so strong, and a true inspiration!

[@kaffemissbrukare]

I cried even more than you when I watched this. You're amazing!

[@icansingstuff13]

Why are people assholes? Why hate on someone who's strong enough to be themselves?

[@garrettsmith8591]

Yourself is who you where born as

[@garrettsmith8591]

+Caleb White if you were meant to be a girl you would have been born a girl or vise versa

[@jacubisrael6676]

+Caleb White If I told you I believe I'm an cat and sat outside your door waiting for milk would you feed me or call the police? This is an insanely crazy topic. No matter who you think you are, reality is you are what you were born as, and there's nothing you can do to change that nothing! You can tell humanity is on it's last leg. Nature always wins!

[@bitmylip5205]

+Caleb White Caleb, you were born with nipples!

[@bitmylip5205]

+Garrett Smith Garrett you were born with nipples!

[@texturewalk]

can we ask why no one came with you? i'd drop everything and go with someone if they were going alone.

[@SophieAnnie]

im so glad you give people a real honest view of how the surgery was for you! and i am sorry that you were havings such a painful time during recovery, your so brave and i really hope you can get better and enjoy being a woman

[@hallymalcolm9363]

This hit me hard. This is why you are my idol. You have been through so much and you don't sugar coat your experiences. I hope you have a wonderfull day. You are amazing. 🌈

[@DJ2Legit007]

Is it just me or has Julie become even more beautiful since the surgery? So sorry your recovery was/is so bad, Julie... but I respect you so much for "keeping it real." I had heard other stories of people having complications during and after the SRS. It's rare, but it does happen. I'll be so glad when all this pain is just a bad memory. ~Vince

[@mzkokoismyname7630]

Vince Gibbs shut yo gay black ass up...

[@ZeCupcakex]

Although I myself am not a transgender nor planning to be one, I honestly have so much respect towards you. To go through such a hard process, and to share with us is amazing. I couldn't imagine how much pain the surgery could give you, and you friend are an inspirational and brave lady.

[@peterbelanger4094]

Thank you Joules. Thank you for being REAL. Other may try all they can to understand us, but we only have each other to rely on in this. This video scares the hell out of me, but as I take my first steps in that direction, it's infinitely brave souls like yourself that light the path and make it easier. I have major medical/surgery phobias, heck, I had panic attacks over having my wisdom teeth out. But it's experience like yours that help me. Words can not describe your beauty. Thank you.

[@justmatty983]

wow. a lot of people are hating on transgender people and constantly quoting the bible. have a religion doesnt make you a good person, your positive behavior and attitude does.

[@God-cr1ls]

Matthew Sanchez I wrote the Bible, knucklehead! Now go read it!

[@justmatty983]

God I thought there is no internet connection in heaven...

[@Euphoriasings]

You can have both ;P

[@darklord4007]

Matthew Sanchez What's cruel and unusual on the youtube today?

[@justmatty983]

***** Wow. i just cant even... the amount of ignorance is astonishing. not surprised from a religious person. I dont even know where to begin... Actually, one of the nicest people I have usually see are the people without religion, a pagan, and possibly a satanist. Atheists, Pagans, and possibly Satanist (although i dont agree with that religion) dont judge people by who they love, basically, or how they were born. Christians mostly do that. "Love thy neighbor as thyself" I am a gay Christian and respect everyone, regardless of their beliefs, sexuality, gender, and appearance. Supporting gay people is something that is now accepting and humane, while prevent gays from marrying and discriminating is inhumane. People supporting LGBT+ are mostly nice people, not all, but most. If you want to talk about the past, the first transgender individual must have been Eve because she came from the rib of Adam. Since Adam's DNA is male, Eve is the clone of Adam and that makes her DNA to be male. Science is awesome. So, if you believe in happiness and freedom, then let LGBT+ people get married to whoever they want to marry. Marriage was created out of love. If you want them to get it in private, why are heterosexuals always showing PDA everyday, yet no one complains about that This world was built on science, empires, and rulers. History lesson: many tribes in North America, the Greeks, and possibly the Romans accepted LGBT+ individuals in their own society for certain beliefs. Until Christianity began spreading.

[@Charmeebaby1]

Your strength through this videos show strong a woman you are. I love you for all that you are, I'm proud to watch this video and watch your openness with us all. Being transgender is nothing new but going through the surgery at a time where technology is advancing shows your faith of stepping out. I'm so happy you're here with us to tell us your story💋 you didn't go through this for nothing. Your story is resounding, you're a hero!

[@ninapreciosa377]

Charmee Taylor thats a male !

[@RenaG]

I think its very important to note that this is only her personal experience. There's a brazilian trans girl whos also a youtuber and she claimed that she was terrified BECAUSE of watching this video. She's said her experience couldnt have been any better, didnt feel any pain at all. No to discredit Julie obviously.

[@asteriasummers4600]

+Rena G I understand what you are saying, no worries. Everyone has a different experience. I'm having mine soon and I couldn't be more ready. It helps that I'm planning on having people go with me for emotional and moral support for when I go to get it done. What is the name of the Brazilian transgender woman so I can watch her video to get a different viewpoint of the surgery?

[@7jandi7]

Was The Brazilian on drugs ? I stub my toe and it hurst like hell you can't tell me mutilating the most sensitive part of your body didn't hurt she's Not honest at all or she so emotionally numb she physically doesn't feel pain either she's a walking zombie

[@heaneha6218]

i know its late, but, her name is mandy candy

[@theamethyst93]

I came here to gain a better understanding of trans women and educate myself. I commend you for sharing this as it is extremely personal and there are a lot of rude bigots that will leave you hate comments. I'm glad you're ok after all the surgery. You look amazing.

[@madi32]

Yes!

[@sillyvalliexo]

Just sayin' but, I feel like this surgery would be a breeze for me. I've had six brain surgeries (so far), two of which the surgeon said he didn't know if I'd live through the night, so I've got this in the bag, yo. Hope for a speedy recovery for you. ^^ And hope the pain goes away soon.

[@sillyvalliexo]

***** :P Maybe

[@Jeannette0890]

Good bless you... Seriously

[@desinoel4851]

the brain doesn't have nerve endings so basically you're comparing your head being cut open to gender reassignment surgery. not one in the same.

[@sillyvalliexo]

julia goolea You're pretty naive if you're implying brain surgery doesn't hurt, not to mention the everlasting effects it has on your overall mental and physical ability/condition.

[@desinoel4851]

She was mentioning physical pain and I never said that it didn't hurt to have brain surgery. But like I said before you're comparing your situation to hers and they are no where near the same. Her situation will not have "everlasting effects" she will heal and continue with her life. This is a hard time for her because she is in the recovery stage. As for your brain situation it will you mentioned that there is "the everlasting effects it has on your overall mental and physical ability/condition." With that being said it will most likely continue throughout your life but for her this is temporary. So again, there is no comparison to you and her. I think you are naive to think since you had brain surgery several times that gender reassignment surgery would be a "breeze"

[@juliafoolinya]

You sweet thing. I'm so sorry you went through this. I wish I could hug you. I'm getting ready to make that same choice after fifteen years of living full time. Thank you for opening up on your experiences and letting yourself be vulnerable. You're a doll.

[@DeathDelays232]

I hate seeing her cry :( You're so strong Joules! I wouldn't be able to do what you did in a thousand years so good for you!

[@darklord4007]

DeathDelays232 Oh isn't that sweet, you hate seeing her cry. BOO HOO!!!!!!!!

[@DeathDelays232]

Dark Lord 10 year olds shouldn't be able to have a KZbin, poor little kid

[@darklord4007]

DeathDelays232 Hi sweetheart. I'm a good boy. What's cruel and unusual today on KZbin?

[@God-cr1ls]

I am the Lord. Dont let all those other clowns fool you

[@DeathDelays232]

lmao xD

[@rhianhy]

Oh my gosh i wanted to hug you so bad as soon as you started crying. You are so so strong.

[@teebrinner5939]

And you're an idiot

[@LXW-Arts]

@@teebrinner5939 it's getting worst the human population is slowly decreasing. I don't want kids.

[@teebrinner5939]

@William Cebek this is so true but it's not PC no mention ones concerns

[@teebrinner5939]

@@LXW-Arts it's really getting worse . Is it me or are women's intellect decreasing?.

[@Sorryscene]

I wish I could give you big hug. It broke my heart to see you cry, you are an angel. Love you

[@abelpulliza4649]

ikr 😒

[@MikiBlackheart]

+Sorryscene when she cry i was like damn!! no : ( and imagine her in that moment jesus!

[@MikiBlackheart]

eh? .-. sorry i dont get what you mean Jordan Thomas

[@solidariu5]

+Jordan Thomas Jeebus is on another channel. Hate isn't acceptable on channels like her's.

[@jtthomas910]

+Telonis But apparently sin is

[@TheGlamorousLife]

Im so glad this had a happy ending because you're happy. I really commend you for being brutally honest . Kat xx

[@blondhairshedontcare]

Lol I've seen you on Trisha's videos.

[@TheGlamorousLife]

***** Im popular eh? ;)

[@madisonkay_yay]

No you're not popular at all, you're just a thirsty bitch 💁

[@tjtanner9311]

Thank you so much for being so open and honest with us about the surgery. I know this will help someone else.

[@yelloworangered]

I"m so glad that you posted this and have been so honest. Surgery is never easy, it's creates a wound and your mind and body see it as a wound no matter how much it was planned for and wanted. Thank you for being so honest and revealing the difficulty that you had.

[@chazkm]

I almost ran away from home when I found out they were going to circumcise me. I don't even want a taste of what you went through.

[@LadyMaverick6779]

Surgery in general is risky.. I can't imagine the pain you went through but I can empathize with being the only one who had trouble recovering.. I had gastric bypass surgery and of all the surgeries from that day I ended up back in the OR for emergency surgery and then ended up flatlining long enough that my dr was about to call my time of death! Then after that fiasco I ended up in a coma for two months! And in the ICU for three! I had an open incision that took over 6 months to close and hurt so bad... It was a hard recovery and I know this is an old video and I'm glad you are better but wanted to say I can empathize with you on being scared! Since that surgery I've had 6 more abdominal surgeries and each one I freak out and lose it! Again so glad you are much better since this video and as I new subbie wanted to tell you that you are a strong soul and keep on kicking ass girl! :)

[@kmlarson1035]

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU FOR POSTING THIS!!! THANK YOU FOR POSTING THE REALITY CHECK!!! There are dangers in ALL Surgeries AND most importantly it's always important to plan to have emotional support. Pre-plan. Don't sugar coat. I'm so happy you pulled through you are a strong person! Surgery is right for some and your being satisfied with surgery afterwards is a blessing. So thankful you are a presence on You Tube.

[@jstarASMR3103]

You are such and strong person and I'm so glad you lived. This literally made me tear up and I think after you recover you will never regret this.

[@bluecreambunnymomiji]

I'm glad you came out ok though. you're lucky to be here.

[@PhoenixGC89]

A friend of mine is a ftm trans person and I hope she comes through it OK.

[@FrankieFrankenstein7]

I'm glad you're being real about it! I feel like you're the only one on KZbin that's honest about it. People look at Gigi's videos, and they think its all LA LA LA. flowers. No hate on Gigi BTW, I've loved her forever, but I feel like Ms. Vu is really real!

[@peggimurphyfredrick]

I am so very sorry you went through so much pain during your recovery and losing so much blood. I am so very grateful you did survive like the warrior princess that you are. I know this is not even close to what you went through but when you were talking about the doubts you had it reminded me of when I gave birth to my daughter. It was 36 hours of very hard labor and 6 hours of pushing. Her cord was wrapped around her twice so every time I pushed when I stopped she would slide right back. I did a natural birth so no pain meds for the first 20 hours until I couldn't take it any more. I remember telling the doctors and nurses I had changed my mine and I don't want to have a baby so just let me go back home. Finally the doctor got my baby out using forceps. When he put them inside me around her head he pushed down hard and broke my tail bone than he put one foot up on the table and dragged her out if me. I was in so much pain I had an out of body experience and watched from the ceiling for about 5-8 min. Than I was back but baby wasn't crying. I was screaming why isn't she crying but no one would answer. Finally after they did CPR I heard my baby's cries and they brought her to me. Than I knew it was worth it. It took me a long time to recover and I could barely walk for about 4 weeks. My baby is 25 now and is getting ready to have her 4th child and I couldn't love her more. All that pain and the gift just keeps on giving!! I am proud of your strength. By the way I just found your channel tonight and I'm doing a marathon to catch up.

[@boomchicka5629]

Oh my God. That sounds like so much pain and torture. Thank God everything turned out well. Jesus. You went through HELL and back!

[@peggimurphyfredrick]

It was but so worth it

[@peggimurphyfredrick]

She really was and now she is a mommy if 4 my last grandson is 2 weeks old

[@MichelleMacAuley]

WOW! I'm shocked your doctor didn't give you a C-section. He broke your tailbone? That's wrong in so many ways. I'm so glad your little girl is now a mommy herself and all is well. ***** Both of my labors and deliveries went really, really well. First labor was 8 hours, 20 min of pushing and 2nd was 4 hours, 8 min of pushing. I have fairly wide hips, though, which is good because they were both just a couple of ounces away from 9lbs.

[@peggimurphyfredrick]

My second child was 45 min of labor and one push. He couldn't wait to be born! Lol

[@AlexandraMeier28]

Awwww darling you poor poor thing. Can't imagine what you went through. You're beautiful and amazing and so strong! Hope you're better now

[@tainastelmach4583]

It just happened that I found your video and I couldn't stop myself from coming and giving you my support! You are so strong! Be proud of how much you've battled to be who you are! Wish you all the good luck, happiness and strength! You are beautiful!

[@penttijyrinki]

You are so brave! The insecure people leaving nasty comments, you have issues in your life, and a long way to grow. Best wishes Princess!

[@Shaytea.Ojibwe]

To any male that is hating on her if she identified as a guy she is stronger than any of you she gave up her testicles and that right there is saying a lot so let's be serious, so if she identified as he she is more man than of you but for right now she is absolutely more the woman. Love you joules wish you the best in life. Stay happy.

[@salvolondon]

Think if any man would be like him .... The species would just disappear . There is nothing great on castrating yourself

[@Shaytea.Ojibwe]

+Salvo Smith ummm no. there are still men out there that have sex with women and have child.

[@salvolondon]

Exactly ..... If there weren't that would mean the disappearance of the species .... Nothing courageous on mutilating your body .

[@Shaytea.Ojibwe]

+Salvo Smith did you know women can use other women's bone marrow to have kids oh and there is cloning besides the fact that there are sperm banks.

[@salvolondon]

Cloning .... Bone morrow .... Wow , what a great way to have children ..... Sperm banks still need sperm . And only fertile men can provide fertile sperm . Beside that all the things you mention are relatively recent , and are based on the concept that children can be bought like expensive puppies ( yeah , in this era everyones right is important beside childrens rights ) . If 100 years ago everyone was removing his balls and penises there would not be any way to avoid extintion . So there is absolutely nothing to celebrate in a man who mutilate himself to pretend to be what he will never be . Reminds me of Michael Jackson's syndrome .

[@asteriasummers4600]

Thank you for your honesty Julie from the bottom of my heart, I'm a pre-operation transwoman who will be possibly getting the surgery done within a year from now. I appreciate that you took the time to tell us the truth and not sugarcoat things about the actual surgery itself. I feel like this video has helped me prepare that much more emotionally and mentally for when the day comes for me to have my surgery.

[@m.4075]

Hope your ok ✌❤

[@m.4075]

Hope your ok ✌❤

[@priscillababe]

+Asteria Summers that beard shows u r all female too...

[@loveapureheart]

Don't do it!!!

[@MikeSmith-ve2qu]

you have gender dysphoria get help don't mutilate your body.

[@bedroombunny9529]

Thank you Joules. Finally I have seen someone who isn't afraid to share the brutal truth, this surgery CAN be very difficult to recover from and people need to be ready for that if they are going to go through with it. Congratulations Joules, you are the Warrior Princess.

[@ViolinTreble]

Thank you for being so brave to share your story. Surgery is hard and some people have bad reactions but like any surgery the risks usually do not outweigh the benefits. In this case especially the benefits were so worth it! You are such a beautiful girl. Hugs lovely

[@marinatelesi7551]

When you're crying with her and she says "I couldnt poo".

[@hazelbintmaraj1640]

stfu

[@Amitykay1]

I found this video after watching the actual procedure being preformed. My heart goes out to you, I can't imagine how incredibly painful your recovery must have been! Thank you for sharing your journey with those of us who are curious. You are a beautiful and strong woman!

[@MrJypsye]

I'm so glad I wasn't born wanting to be a different gender, must be so hard

[@cadaverous6]

drain It is, actually. And it’s “feeling like you’re in the wrong body”, not “wanting to be a different gender”

[@lasinhouseinthetrees1928]

@@cadaverous6 yep

[@TJ-it1bm]

I feel like trans people are lucky in a sense because they can do something about that feeling. I've been desperately feeling like I'm in the wrong century, but I'm stuck here.

[@MrJypsye]

@@TJ-it1bm what century do u think u belong in cuz I rly have quite the longing for past eras as well

[@dewilew2137]

@@TJ-it1bm that’s idiotic.

[@MarieBorgesU]

why am i watching this while on my period omg i barely saw your eyes watering and i started crying. i respect you so much.

[@toyamosley1955]

Damn

[@FrankieFrankenstein7]

I can't imagine feeling like I was in the wrong body..... Transitioning is such a HUGE deal. I don't think some people understand how big of a decision it truly is. There's a reason you have to go through so many hops! Please be safe and smart with your decisions.

[@KaylaNoelle1]

This is so sad I'm so sorry the surgery was so difficult for you, you are so strong and I think honestly everyone who goes through this surgery should have a loved one with them. My best friend's sister went with their mom.

[@jasminejass7092]

oh my goodness, I wish I could give you a hug, you made me cry! I am so sorry that you went through that, you are a strong women for sure. I look up to you!!

[@julieslife1879]

Dear julie, thank you for your input on this surgery. I was finally offered the chance to have this surgery, something I wanted my whole life but I turned it down for these very same reasons. at 26 when I applied I was turned down because I had a girl friend. that thank goodness has changed. 40 years later I turned it down because I had been thru 8 major surgeries with a couple being really close to dying. I just couldn't face it again. it is a major surgery and while most have minor complications, the outcome is not guaranteed. no matter how you look at it, it is dangerous. I only hope your recovery is complete and brings peace to your soul. love you, julie.

[@Erecura]

Surgery is surgery, and in the end they're *ALL* major, anything that requires general anesthesia, a chemical that puts you so close to death, is a major thing and no one should walk into an operating room thinking it's no big deal. Every single human body is DIFFERENT. You should never ever compare one's surgery experience to one you might be anticipating because what someone else went through, there are chances you will not go through at all. I understand how you feel, because I did the same thing as you and just listened to others experiences without a single doubt in my head. I had a 7 hour spinal fusion surgery, I was expected to walk after 2 days, and leave the hospital after 7 days, and I expected the best. But no, I had a horrible recovery time, I had to stay in the hospital for 9 days, my stomach collapsed and I couldn't eat, I threw up every time I lifted my head, I had to get a feeding tube because I was so dehydrated and starved, all while another girl I shared the room with was talking on the phone the first hour out of the operating room, and she left before me even though she got the same surgery 4 days AFTER me. It was very discouraging, but I made it. And you made it too. I don't want to discourage anyone who is receiving surgery soon to only think of the worst, doctors are amazing these days, and they will do everything they can, but keep in mind that there is a reason for them to explain the risks beforehand, and to just be ready for anything and everything.

[@maylinnhagensennymoen5444]

To recover from the surgery can be hard. Think you're tough I Julie! When I lost a lot of blood during birth, my doctor put me on iron tablets. Remember to drink plenty of fluids. Wish you a good recovery! Sending you lot's of love!

[@zeifertstc]

I like your choice of words Maylinn. I see lots of people choose to say "brave" but it just doesn't feel accurate. Tough has that feeling of accuracy to it. Tough enough to weather the pain, tough enough to come to KZbin and share with us what's what. I can only hope to be half the person that Joules is.

[@maylinnhagensennymoen5444]

zeifertstc Thank you for your kind words :)

[@Bellabooxoxbell]

Omg girl, Im so sorry. I really want to come over there, and give you the biggest hug in the world!. Im so glad you are here on this earth today, because you make my life, and others life feel amazing

[@julesweiss6950]

This comments on here are disgusting. Thank you so much for making this video. I'm a ftm and find this video really helpful and appreciate you being so open.

[@joym824]

What is SRS like for female to male?

[@cadaverous6]

Me too man!

[@ericrood2308]

I agree. If someone wants to do something to their body, and they are not harming anyone, then more power to them.

[@Ashluv085]

Im a horrible person! idk why I laughed when you said you couldn't poo. lol. But wow that sounds horrible!!!! I kind of know what that feels like being all kinds of backed up after surgery. I had a biladeral hernia repair. which ur supposed to go home the same day. and I was in sooo much pain in my lower abdomen it was horrible, legit thought I was gonna die. I had to stay extra nights and I too couldn't poo. But yours was prolly wwayyyyyyyyyy worse. I cant imagine. but im glad you give the real side of things so that people who are going through this know exactly what to expect.

[@8Biitt]

LMAOOOOOOOOOOO

[@haygurl7885]

ikr.. xd

[@personalyt6728]

me too..i really laughed hard..

[@hellahannah9452]

Constipation is actually soooo painful...

[@koosobie]

The idea may be funny, but it is definately something easily taken for granted! Lots of pills as well as dehydration cause constipation. Her blood loss likely caused it. But speaking from experience, altho it sounds funny it is a very scary thing!

[@msdeshabangbang]

This video is sooo true, I am 8 days post op and this is by far one of the hardest things a person can go thru. Congrats to you on a amazing recovery Joules.

[@shahrukhmechanical]

That made me emotional, I cannot relate to you really, but I am happy, you are what you wanted to be. All the best.

[@Mommyslilbabygurl]

Why are there so many haters on KZbin, or better yet in the world? SHE did what SHE wanted too, she did NOT have to put any of this out here for anyone to see but she did. Oh well, I guess there will always be cruel sick ass people out there. If you didn't wanna watch it, then don't click on it. KEEP YOUR RUDE COMMENTS TO YOURSELF. She almost died, but yet all you guys are worried about is telling her to get over it because it's what she wanted. Last I checked she wasn't complaining, she is just telling her point of view!

[@Guardianangel369]

It’s probably the most difficult recovery after an operation, and your feelings are valid, and even though you may think everyone else had it easy, but I’m pretty sure they didn’t, it’s a bumpy ride, that takes many months, even years to be where you finally want to be comfortable, because there’s the operation and then the use of dilators to keep the wound open until it’s healed and a working vagina. It will be worth it in the end, stay strong! ❤

[@monicalamb4life461]

September 18th 2019 I had my gender reassignment surgery girl everything you said I went through hun I'm still recovering in pain dilating sucks but we are strong women and do what we gotta do your an inspiration to me love you.

[@delacour002]

Hun, the fact that you were questioning yourself proves that you are a normal person! It proves that you are sane and your reaction to the bad recovery that you were having at first = NORMAL! The only people who don't have doubts on anything are delirious people. =)

[@geektastic2119]

You are so right. I a. So proud of Julie

[@paulinec8496]

Hi Julie, I had my surgery on April 27, 2017 and I remember this video and how many times I watched it and you're absolutely right. I know this is what I wanted and I had no doubts but when the moment came for surgery, sitting in that waiting room at 6:30 AM was the longest 30 minutes of my life. I to flew several hundred miles away for the surgery by myself with no one I don't have family support but I have a lot of friends who support me and that made it a littler easier. My recovery was very difficult as well. I had a blockage in my urethra and they had to reinsert my catheter even worse I had to go home with it and remove it later by my doctor. It's still difficult to pee today. I know it's still fairly early in the recovery but I wanted to let you know that I listened to this post so many times before actually doing it and just like you I knew this is what I wanted, for a long time I wanted this, but when that moment came to go to that surgery room, I hesitated-and I don't believe anybody who doesn't go through this well ever really know the difficulty of being a post op transgender person and never fully feeling who you are until you do things that make you feel complete. My only wish is for my family to accept me because I still love them and miss them very much. Thank you Julie for this video

[@thatawkwardkid57]

Aw, don't cry Princess you're so gosh darn pretty and you're the awesomest person I know as well as an inspiration. Hugs and Kisses from Butters :)

[@nignog7136]

You really changed my mind about bottom surgery. Thank you so much

[@saranikolaisen6879]

I don't think that's what she tried to do by making this video ! .. she is just honest that bottom surgery IS not quick fix ...

[@RadiantPixie]

Not sure why this popped back up in my recommended. I watched this when I started to question my gender identity back when this video came out. Princess Joules helped me put my worries to rest by helping me understand that I was a trans woman. Thank you again, Joules.

[@poutyjimini]

You are such a strong woman. I'm so proud of you sharing this with us.

[@amihernandez6650]

I'm glad to hear that you are recovering. I can imagine how scary it must have been for you. Btw.. You are absolutely stunning :)

[@darklord4007]

I'm afraid it was quite scary indeed. BOO!

[@l4nternz]

Thank you for sharing this, it's such a big decision that so many people just think "Oh yeah everything will be perfect once I get this!" but there's so many difficulties and complications people need to mentally prepare for.

[@JessicaSimonson1976]

Joules it is sad you went through that experience. I too am pre-op transgender....and this is a question I keep getting asked. I am just focusing on the basic of my transition.....and being me.

[@vijay_katax7893]

Feeling sorry 4 her

[@johnsamuel1701]

believe in yourself

[@DirrtyPanda]

I know this might be inappropriate especially when she's very vulnerable but I laughed when she said, "I was constipated, I could not poo."

[@Andy224]

You are extremely brave for not only having gone through it but by also sharing your story with such honesty. I wish you have the bright future you deserve.

[@Emily-gh8bn]

you're such a strong person! Ilove you!💖✨

[@angievelez483]

She is so different than Gigi Gorgeous. What a difference they are both so different.

[@nylonnalini]

Heartening to see your videos. Gives a practical perspective on things to others like me who are considering going down this path. You had a roommate and a boyfriend who stood with you during the painful phase. You are very very lucky!

[@Peachelliver]

you were a girl to me BEFORE you did the surgery, no matter what! and you always will ...

[@alandrosstettina1843]

For the loooooooove..... Being gay or trans is NOT a choice. STAHP saying that. People do NOT chose to be straight. Stop being close minded. Get over it. It's super annoying.

[@infinityguy6188]

prove it.

[@alandrosstettina1843]

Nothing to prove to you.

[@AspenAren]

Amir Ibrahim Prove that you chose to be straight.

[@infinityguy6188]

NEPTXNE Being straight is normal and natural.

[@AspenAren]

Amir Ibrahim If people choose to be gay, does that mean you could make yourself attracted to the same sex? No? Then you have your answer.

[@gunlokman]

You are a very brave lady. I just wanted to tell you that. Exposing yourself to possible criticism - or worse was an extremely selfless thing to do. You are a star!

[@Kennedyrae2222]

My thing is why are y'all even mad? Like y'all chose to watch the video and tell wanna talk down about sex changes? Like don't hate this person made a choice and was simply expressing how he felt

[@Kennedyrae2222]

Thanks and yeah she. I understand how she feels my dad is a trannie and I still love her so much

[@prettycatacombs]

You are an amazing woman and role model and it is so heartbreaking to see you cry!

[@aylbdrmadison1051]

Stay strong. Your bravery, honesty, and will to live your own truth is an inspiration for anyone, regardless of gender.

[@CLoveBeauty]

Wht people to need to understand is...we as humans are not the only ones here. There are unknown reasons why some humans feel they are the wrong sex. Its NOT their fault...is it a choice? ..yes. If you believe in a higher power...GOD states that as long as you believe he exists..and have faith you'll be saved. So...we all sin and make undesirable choices...including choosing to live as another sex. But only one truth is real...and only GOD can judge. Beautiful and Raw story sweetie. *****

[@boomchicka5629]

It's not a choice. It's a curse, it's generational sins from your family who weren't saved or didn't live a true Christian lifestyle and bought babies into the world. It's up to the person to try and break the curse by getting saved, TRULY saved, not going to church and then going home to gossip, be promiscuous and have a hypocritical soul. If you research this kind of stuff, transgendered and gay people, even as babies are attracted to girly things, girly toys, girly colors or things that the opposite gender would like. Clearly it's not their fault, but it's what their tested with on earth to overcome. God doesn't give weak people tough missions.

[@8Biitt]

Clover Hines Boom Chicka stfu the both of you...

[@CLoveBeauty]

You madddd! I luv it! Boom Chicka

[@boomchicka5629]

***** According to the bible, it is a curse: Lamentations 5:7, "Our fathers have sinned, and are not; and we have borne (been punished for) their iniquities." This is beyond learned behavior; many children learn to be messy if their parents are messy. This is a spiritual bondage that is passed down from one generation to another. I used to think it wasn't fair either, but you have to realize... Spiritually speaking, we are not here to have a walk in the park. We are all here to be tested in different ways, this life isn't meant to be easy. You're here to battle otherwise you wouldn't be here. Some people say it isn't fair if you were born in Africa in a very deprived situation, or if you were born into some horrific Satanic abuse family, but there's a reason why you were born into that situation... You are there to LEARN from it, to become stronger from it and to overcome it... And if you weren't capable of overcoming it, you would have never been given that task. God doesn't want weak people in heaven, you have to earn your right to be one of his angels, and to do that, you have to go through some difficult things and learn your lessons. No one has it easy, everyone has their own personal situations to overcome, and we were all given the tools to be ABLE to overcome them, we just have to learn how to access those tools through experience and life lessons. And you have to remember, spiritually speaking, you weren't put here to go after your heart's desires, to do what you want... You are here to serve and resist temptation. That is one of the tests, to give up our selfish nature. It is actually one of the commandments in the Satanic bible to do what YOU want. "'Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law." And this is what the bible says about your HEART: "The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick; who can understand it?" Jeremiah 17:9 We are not supposed to lead with our hearts. We are not supposed to do what WE want because of EARTHLY DESIRES. The devil RULES the EARTH. In your heart, you feel like a woman, and it's telling you to become a woman but you're being deceived because the heart is evil. You have a huge and tough thing to overcome... To resist those temptations of becoming a woman, marrying a man, etc. It is A LOT to give up but according to the bible, you have to give it up because you weren't put here to go after what YOU want, you were put here to serve... And maybe you got this mission so you could be saved, go to God and show other people who feel like women that it IS possible to overcome that kind of bondage and genuinely change. 2 Corinthians 5:17 "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come" So if you do give up your selfish nature, and stop listening to your deceitful heart, and genuinely resist and surrender - God changes your heart, so the things that you THOUGHT you wanted, no longer exist within you. You are literally "born again" and become a whole new person, where you won't feel like you're a woman, and you become an example to other people who feel enslaved by those thoughts. Everyone has a purpose and mission here. Even a baby who dies shortly after being born, they are there to TEACH the mother or parents something through their death.

[@evilspecter666]

Boom Chicka go fuck yourself?

[@mywig6956]

Stay strong. You have people who love you and support you. 💙

[@brokenchickenleg]

Yeah, but not very many... Less than 8 percent of the country agree genital mutilation should be legal.

[@traceywilliams6012]

+brokenchickenleg yep.

[@trappychan]

>92 percent of the USA are stupid human garbage I don't think that's breaking news to anyone in the world.

[@rebeccatrishel]

8 years later, and my sympathies extend through the years ... I'm wondering how you are doing now (I'll check the channel for updates). Surgery should always be scary - if you're not scared, that's abnormal. And the depression and pain you went through is tough to hear about. Thank you for being honest and forthcoming about your experience and not sugar-coating it, which many people feel socially pressured to do

[@pupspepper]

i wouldn't ever regret getting the surgery, vs not getting the surgery. if i would lie there experiencing beyond anything pain based upon this horror body, i would only regret not killing the physical before getting an srs. fucking horrible nature, sending us through life long torture for 1000s of years without any hope for transsexuals and now with extremly painful operations and yet nothing of this leads for most of us to seeing our face and body in the mirror, but at best sth. closer. getting srs sucks, but staying in this shit world without srs is more horrible.

[@nickinick5219]

you just gained a subscriber. your so brave ! your not a transgender anymore.. your a women! you don't have to explain yourself to anyone that's less valuable in your life! God is good! This video is amazing!

[@vickyswyers1703]

Your still here? Fuck must be awful horny garrett your on here almost everyday.

[@garrettsmith8591]

+vicky swyers shut up

[@HazelFay-arts]

+jeanika lewis I mean like. I get what you're saying and all but. She's still transgender, thats not going to change. Her experiences are that of a transgender woman. She can be both transgender and a woman, they are not mutually exclusive- please don't take this the wrong way! I'm never sure how to word things politely...

[@garrettsmith8591]

+angela lindop he still is a man if he doesn't have female sex organs and he still has the Y chromosome so he still is a man

[@HazelFay-arts]

Cool I wasn't talking to you

[@lovelesssyn]

I have no idea if you'll ever read my comment But I believe that energy travels and even if you never get the chance to see this with your own eyes... I hope that you feel this and know that you are so beautiful. Your energy is amazing girl! But not only that but you are extremely strong and truly are a real women. I can feel it from your soul how feminine you are. The reality of your body Matching your soul And having to go through such a transformation by yourself.... Fearing your life... I know this was a while ago... But I just wanted to say Thank you so Much for being so brave and sharing your life with us. I am So honored to be able to watch your videos and learn from you. So much love and blessing are coming your way. Always live in the now 👣

[@Meowastic]

someone please explain how this surgery is a good thing besides the fact that it makes people 'happy' in their body

[@lullabiesism]

What if, WHAT IF suddenly you wakeup one day and you realised that there's still a guy thing inside of you, there's a desire to be a man again. How?.... I just really want to know.

[@taradiddle7]

I can't speak on behalf of her, but I don't she's worried about that, she's a girl like I am, except I was born one and she wasn't. That's it. I know I'm never gonna wake up and want to be a man, and I doubt she will either. But I get where you're coming from

[@lullabiesism]

i don't know, i mean we're not her so we may not know how she feel. we cannot be too sure of one thing. I mean happiness is a temporary feeling. well, i have a friend like her, and the she regret doing that to her body. All i can do is just pray for this sweet woman.

[@derrick.t4031]

Honestly my fear.

[@julial3758]

someone had that happen before, they just did surgery to change back to a dude but u don't get a real ding dong u get a pump >_> it was on tv on some show I can't remember :D

[@Cynthiats01]

lullabiesism Yes there are many who regret it for one thing or another, this is why we have therapist and we talk it out. One thing is the start of thier lives, they have lived as what they dislike but it has been there for a long time, when you change you lose all that and are living a new life a life you wanted. This scares alot of people and they think they made a mistake. It will happen if they are not sure if they lie to them selves just to do it. BE SURE BEFORE YOU CHANGE. understand the feeling you will have and the heart break. Know your self is what i give to the change!!

[@danpage3942]

Can I just say I really respect you as a person you're SO GREAT! I've been confused about my gender identity for a while, looking at someone like you really gives people hope for the future!

[@ariannaknightbridge8174]

why did you watch this. so what she had the surgery its her decision and i dont think u saying stupid shit is gonna change anything. she wants to be a girl and thts ok so leave her alone!

[@brokenchickenleg]

you mean "he" had the surgery. that is still a man regardless of what hormones he takes or how his genitals were mutilated. no matter what clothes he puts on or what name he calls himself.....he cannot change gender.

[@brokenchickenleg]

+Suzan Odison ...perhaps, but that has nothing to do with the truth that I spoke.

[@sarajane4135]

brokenchickenleg, AMEN

[@brokenchickenleg]

+Sara Jane ...I agree. and I hope I didn't come off as one who has animosity towards them. I harbor no bad feelings towards them. I too feel bad for them and their mental illness. the problem is in their heads, not in their bodies.

[@AyataHiragi]

his* it was his decision.

[@joiealina]

All I have to say is that you are a WOMAN! I don't care if you had a penis or a vagina, whatever you felt you were, I support you fully! You took that extra step to make you feel better and I applaud you! You were so strong and I love you so much!! 😘

[@God-cr1ls]

Young lady, I think you should read your Bible.

[@joiealina]

God 1. You have no right to call yourself God. 2. God loves all his children. 3. I did read the bible.

[@smszx]

JoieAlina_cx Why are you talking to someone pretending to be a non existent entity that killed millions of people

[@God-cr1ls]

Junkzx If I don't exist then where did this comment come from?

[@smszx]

A 12 year old's basement.

[@Haganeno91]

I know what you've been through. I've never had a SRS, but i had a kidney surgery last year. I was in a room with two other women and they were recovering all well, walking and laughing as if they never had a surgery to start with, whille I was there crying in pain and not recovering, so I know how that feels. I'm glad to know you're doing fine now

[@AgePiera]

You are so beautiful :) I'm so happy for you! Be happy and proud! Xox